After about 8 gallons of ginger tea my cycle started which means they can fit in IVF before the clinic shuts down for the holidays.
This is it!
I’m on the birth control pill now until Thursday. I have an endo-biopsy scheduled for tomorrow…apparently this is to beef up the lining? I’m pretty sure they’re just looking for more excuses to poke me. Our egg retrieval is scheduled for November 15. (I guess I need to buy some socks? I’m finally starting to understand everyone else’s posts. What’s the story with pineapple?)
My husband wanted to have a big talk the other night. The “We need to be prepared for this not to work and prepare for the idea of not having children” talk.
I shut it down. I’m not ready for this talk. I’ve been working so hard to be calm and positive. I’m on a fertility cleanse, I’m exercising, I’m going to acupuncture, reflexology, Cranial Sacral therapy, losing weight and going to counselling. All of this, although sparked by the fertility treatment, is contributing to me being a calmer and happier person. I’m not ready to let go of the peace that I have just found.
Here are my worries and “what ifs” and potential road blocks – just to get them out of my system:
– no good eggs
– no good sperm
– no fertilized eggs
– genetic testing proves that embryos are all abnormal
– embryos don’t survive
– I get pregnant and lose another baby
There – it’s out and now I can let go of my worries. I’ll just take it one step at a time (and I’ll take those steps in my new socks).