After months of “assistance” (cycle monitoring, injectable drugs, progesterone suppositories) I am yet to see a positive pregnancy test.
We went to the clinic just under a year ago to try to get to the bottom of our three losses. Why was this happening? Will I ever be able to carry a baby to term? What can we do?
The diagnosis was “immature eggs”. The solution was to take meds and monitor my cycle to correct the issue. We’ve been trying this for several months to no avail.
I recently met with the doctor again last week to revisit the issue. I just can’t understand why I could get pregnant 3 times with broken babies, and now, with help haven’t.
The doctor looked at my monitoring results (blood and ultrasound) from the past several months and let me know the devastating news.
This isn’t going to work.
The doctor, probably wisely, said to continue with what we’re doing is “just not good medicine”.
He gave us one option. IVF.
This was a hard pill to swallow. When we embarked upon this journey, IVF was our “line”. IVF was out. IVF was not an option.
Now that I’ve had three babies in my belly and never been able to meet them, all of a sudden, having a biological child has become more important. After all of this effort, it’s hard to stop here.
My husband and I have some big decisions to make. Is it worth the gamble? Is it worth the expense? Is this the way we want to start our family? We’ve already started the adoption process. The wait could be long. Maybe it’s time to just sit and wait.